Filed under: complaints
i recently saw the most beautiful dress in my whole life which also has a very extraordinary price tag close to that of a louboutin shoe…
am trying to convince the boyfriend to chip in for me. ok that’s all. please email me if you feel like contributing to my dress fund. kthxbye.
sometimes things slip beyond my control and i disappoint the people who care about me the most. i guess i’m just tired of being upset. being upset means wandering around the city aimlessly buying shoes. trying on clothes doesn’t help when i no longer fit into a respectable slim size. nobody feels more upset than me about this.
sometimes i feel like the sole purpose of a blog is an abstract avenue where i type out my unhappiness and it disappears into cyberspace and dissipates into somewhere so abstract i can’t begin to think where cyberspace starts and ends.
i can’t voice out unhappiness articulately, neither does talking about it help because i think unhappiness is transferred. i guess only transferring my unhappiness to an abstract space i cannot see, helps.
i feel like disappearing.
random:
after three years, i finally let my upset madnesses affect me and i let my hair be cut. not that i regret it(it’s not a drastic change), but i felt so violated when i saw my beautiful hair lying on the floor. i let the stylist push me into buying some expensive treatment nonsense. i think i just didn’t want to wander around the city waiting for his texts. at least the stylist reads me well enough…
“you love your hair too much.”…
can i just say that my virgin hair is awesomely smooth and black now? i can’t stop touching it.
keep the ones you love near you. you might wake up one day to find they never existed.
till now it still amuses me sometimes to call him “bf”. it still makes me embarrassed to say i miss yous and i love yous. i think there is no other simple pleasure that beats sleeping in a lover’s warm embrace and open one eye to see him watch you sleep.
Filed under: confessions
misunderstood. i’m not sure if i can bother explaining myself anymore.
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i don’t know whether it was because the movie on hbo was adapted from my favorite khaled hosseini book, or whether i was just being emotional about everything that happened this week, but i’m sure the tv must hate me, and the trees must hate me.
i am not worthy of him. i don’t know why he loves me. and i am just a girl.
my favorite line from the book+movie:
“for you, a thousand times over.”
he doesn’t know it yet, but for him, a thousand million times over.
Filed under: amused
a conversation with my three year old sister in mandarin+english, translated to english only for convenience.
me
jiejie(big sister) is very sad because korkor(big brother) flew away on an airplane today. no more korkor.
sister
why he sit airplane? he doesn’t like you any more?
me
no… i don’t know. what do you think about korkor? you like him??
sister
then you take airplane to find him? i like korkor. he bought me a big soft toy for hailey’s happy birthday.(boyfriend bought her a ginormous stitch toy for her birthday, and she has a habit of referring to herself as a third person)
it’s the simple things that matter. sharing a cup of froyo, enjoying a live band with a beer, doing silly things in the rain, watching nonsense “4D” movies together…
i am content.
Filed under: amused
the boyfriend got me a pair of tickets to a russell peters show in march. a white guy and an asian girl going to a russell peters show is just asking for it.
muahahahhahahahahhaha.
one day and one hour till he reaches changi. twenty hours till he gets on the plane. eighteen hours till he checks in at the perth airport.
thank god i have a busy day today (:
Filed under: annoyed
i’m super annoyed. parents are flying off suddenly to china to sell a house and i thought the boyfriend could change his flight to come asap, but SQ fucked up this time. three flights a day from perth and it’s BOOKED OUT? GEEZ.
but oh well. we were friends for so long before dating…… i suppose waiting two more days should be nothing.
be patient, qi.
the days have been busy.
christmas spent with good friends. three and a half days till the boyfriend flies here.
this is a good end to a shitty year. i can’t wait for 2010. (:
click for pictures! (:
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haven’t posted pictures in a long time! click for them!
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11 more days! note to self: STOP EATING GARLIC BREAD AND START EXERCISING!
