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today got me thinking about religion, god’s omniscience, politics, the politics of religion, and filial piety.
i have so much to say yet all i will say is, religious crusades are a waste of resources and innocent lives, and if religion should stay in the new few millions of years(if we haven’t self-destructed already), holy wars should stay the fuck away.
goodnight.
nothing’s set in stone, but it looks like i could be eating indomee in perth in june.
i thought to myself at the start of this year, that this could be my best year ever. i could be right, or wrong.
i feel like i’m forced to grow up in an abrupt pause in the workings of my plans.
no more screwing up.
sigh.
“He’s a real nowhere Man,
Sitting in his Nowhere Land,
Making all his nowhere plans
for nobody.
Doesn’t have a point of view,
Knows not where he’s going to,
Isn’t he a bit like you and me?”
Nowhere Man, The Beatles.
i feel so lost. i think the possibility of me either going to the land down under and staying here is evenly split. ah yi said dad won’t consider KL because of the security issues………………….
how did i end up like this? if i went back in time, would i have done the same thing? i don’t think so. i don’t know what went wrong; i don’t know if following my flighty mind was a mistake in the first place.
everything annoys me these days. the sight of an SRJC student in uniform irks me to high heavens. i can’t stand the thought of going to australia. i can’t stand the thought of staying in singapore. i can’t decide on anything. i am quite irked by the fact that i will probably have to eat indomee every damned day there, and even more irked by the fact that i will not eat teochew-style steamed fish for a very long time.
i don’t want to go there, yet i don’t want to stay. i don’t know what to do. everything rests on my father. i hate resting on limbo.
good luck to me.
