i am skipping school to finish some shitty work. ROAD-TRIP tomorrow down south because my housemate’s friend(i’m not sure) is here to visit him so we shall all rent a car and drive down south for wineries, chocolate factories, and i have so much work to do because i’m not free next weekend because MISS KASE TAN is coming from singapore to visit, and we shall go to a gay club to ogle @ cute gay men!!!! and i promise you, miss tan, i will wash my sheets and tidy my (fucking messy)room before you come.
1. lit thesis to do
2. el2 essay to finish 1500 words
3. media essay on james bond trailer 1000 words
3. bio report 1/3 of 1200 words?
4. econs test to mug should be easy-peasy
off to EXOTICA tonight, with my favorite roast porkkkkkkkk and icey ice! yum! we’re all bringing my housemate’s “friend” to the strip club because stuffy singapore doesn’t have ANY! and then home calls, then we’re waking up early tomorrow to drive down south. hell of a hectic weekend!
and yesssssss, finally time to finish using my coupons(for the damned strip club)!
Filed under: joy!
i just realized i have six ebooks by chuck palaniuk(author of fight club); sheer brilliance.
i’ve got:
Choke
Fight Club
Invisible Monsters
Diary
Lullaby
Survivor
more motivation to finish off those damned essays and read.
though reading palaniuk makes my head ache, but nobody can deny reading him is like a literary/academic orgasm. it nearly beats the real McCoy.
now, now. time to finish the damned essay i never started on. i can’t wait to see eileen for lunch on monday! free clothes, good company, girltalk, and korean food. who said mondays were blue?
happy two months baby. (:
the days crawl, the months run, and you know the years will fly past us.
i am braceless! 
can’t wait to smooch boyfwen! ha ha! click for braceless pictures!
love you guys for (always)being the loudest table in the house. and janey dear i love you! (:
click for pictures!
Filed under: joy!
in twelve days, i am going to have my braces taken off and in sixteen days, i will have teeth so white and shiny!!
purrrrfection here i come! chinese new year here i come!
i’m sure the boyfriend will be pleased to smooch me without braces too!
Filed under: complaints, confessions, disgust, explanatory, joy!, love, warped
i could run away from knowing everything and something and some things but secretly i think everything i do is a self-destructive attempt not to love and be loved. i am so afraid of falling into my huge pit of self-doubt and men, men, men! two-faced basilisks i fear no heights no insects no rodents just your venom. with no knowledge nada nobody really knows a snake is venomous till it bares its fangs and sinks them into your thigh femural arteries so sexy hannibal lecter knife sex blood sex blood driving me insane venom men snakes love, love snakes, love, snakes, men, sex, blood, venom. trust faith trust faith blind jump pit black pitch-black fear innocuous. love, sex, hotel, sex, love, hotel, love hotel, love hotels.
i’m not making sense nobody does who decides whats sensible and whats not and i could rant and write and rave and scream but can you hear my insides yelling behind the screen of this black macbook can you can you can you can you can you.
my every cell protests against this irrational feeling emotion whatchamacallit and yes it is unnatural beyond reason beyond comprehension what IS reason what IS comprehension nobody really knows nobody knows if im making sense nobody knows what is sense someone define everything in a handbook and mass-publish it and burn all the nonsensical philosophy books i don’t read and don’t have the brain cells to even try.
after so much gibberish, i just wanted to say.
i love you too.
and i know i shouldn’t.
but nonetheless,
iloveyou.
sometimes i wonder what right i did along the way, to have met you. i may have walked off the first night we met, but i’m glad you pulled me back and took me to dinner. i’m glad i went to perth and got to know the girls. i’m glad my friends dragged me into zouk that night so i’d bump into them and then get introduced to you.
i’ve never met someone as calm and level-headed as you. i love how you watch different movies on the telly and tell me the next line that’s gonna be said, and how you tell me all about how your life was like studying in the states.
i love how you fall asleep and fart in the tub. i love touching that scar from your operation. i went to read up all about pectus excavatum and i still remember you told me you kicked off your sandals for your operation.
i love how you appear to be a stupid indonesian boy but underneath it all you’re smart, funny, and knowledgeable. and when you book out i’ll be waiting for you. at the train station. (:
i guess i wouldn’t say i love you just yet, but i’m growing to be so fond of you. sigh i dread february.
i’m so going to make you drive me to hooters for 50 chicken wings damnit. (:
boyfriend i miss you so much why does your mommie have to fly in today to settle the buying of the house?!?!
can you please please please go book swissotel merchant court next week so we can walk and not drive to eat santouka, hooters CHICKEN WINGS, sun with moon desserts, and both of us can drink instead of me drinking and you driving. and you still owe me a TONY ROMA’S meal.
i like it how you like both of us to traipse around town in slippers and jeans, no heels no pretence nothing no makeup. but you know i’m hotter in 5-inchers and short dresses. 
you are so special. i love your patience with me. missyoumuch.
Filed under: joy!
new year’s day!
the first hour of the first day of 2009 was spent getting lost on freeways en route to a house party in LOYANG. (: i had fun. even if my boyfriend got angry with me for downing the red wine and vodka and champagne and even when i was so sober. (:
and because my poor homeless boyfriend doesn’t have a home to go to when he books out, so he has to move from hotel to hotel living out of a suitcase. and royal plaza scotts is a nonsense hotel. five-star my ass!
you made my year this year.
lying down on the bed…
mr adisuwiryo smiles and smiles.
me: “why do you keep smiling and smiling at me?”
mr adisuwiryo: “because i feel like i’m the happiest son-of-a-bitch in the whole world right now.”
i didn’t say anything to you at that very moment. but i too, feel like the happiest daughter-of-a-bitch in the whole world right now.
