today my chest tightened just a little as i heard a song that reminded me of you. i thought of the softness of your hand and how that hand always found its way in mine.
what happened last night was the culmination of all my hurt, grief, and disappointment. i didn’t say anything else, because it was always more me than you. because it was time for me to let go. because it is so hard to fix you.
did you need fixing? or did i impose my standards on you too harshly? did i explain why i felt hurt? did i want to continue going on like this? i have nothing left to give. every move has a thought behind it. i kept quiet so as not to hurt your feelings, yet in the end my heart bleeds for two.
you were more of a sister, than my own sister.
goodbye best friend, i guess forever was a misnomer.